School is almost done!!

School is almost up, and time has really flown. I can't believe I'm already done with 6 weeks of class! This time around has been the best. I have been working much harder, and I have learned so much more than I ever did in nursing. I was struggling with whether I should still continue nursing, if I should pick something else, I don't know. But now, jumping right back into nursing, I know this is the right thing for me. I really love taking care of patients, and I think I have a knack for it. It was always frustrating that I was really good at the patient care, but really bad in the classes. But lately I've been really trying hard, studying so much more, and paying more attention in class. For once in my life, I actually feel like I understand the stuff. This is a big thing for me.

It's also pretty crazy how much of a difference a good instructor/teacher/leader can make. I thought last summer was pretty bad last summer, but now that I have an incredible clinical instructor, I am realizing more and more how bad it really was. I won't go into detail because I am trying to repress the memories of last summer. Haha. But, my instructor this year is so helpful. If we make a mistake, she doesn't yell at us or punish us, but she corrects us and teaches us how to do the job. She also gives us little tips on how to work harder, do the job better, more efficient, etc. My instructor last year never did that. She didn't trust us enough to do anything we were supposed to be doing, and she would yell at us for making mistakes. I think a good teacher will let you know what you did wrong, but help you fix your problems so that you can know. I mean, isn't that common sense? Apparently not every instructor knows that. Anywho, having an awesome instructor makes all the difference in the world. I get excited to go to the hospital. I look forward to learning new skills. Basically, having the best instructor has completely changed my outlook on everything, and I am grateful for that. I've always been so frustrated that nursing school is hard for me, but now I know that it's okay, I just have to work harder. I think my going through this, struggling through this, but not giving up, just shows that I want this. And I won't stop til I get it.

On another note. I hung out with some girls from my new class on Friday. It was really fun, and I really enjoyed hanging out with them and getting to know them. I have made some really great friends so far, and am glad they have all welcomed me into their class. It's hard having new people in your class after being a close-knit group for two years, but they really have just opened up and let me in. I am so happy about that because it has made the change that much easier for me.

I have been soo busy and exhausted. It's pretty normal for me to go to bed at 10pm now, which is bizarre since I am a complete insomniac. I have also been scrapbooking my Barcelona stuff, and it's so much harder than it seems. I want it to be really great, but I just don't really know how to go about that. Last night, I went to Country Jam with Christa, and we had a blast. I am opening up more and more to country music, and I think it's safe to say that I am now a country fan. I never listened to country ever, but now it's the first station I go to when I turn on the radio. Oops. :)

I am really looking forward to the rest of the summer. The day after school is out, I'm flying to Boston for my brother's friends' wedding. Then, I am going to NYC for a few days. I really miss Kev and am excited to spend a few days with him. I haven't seen him since Christmas! :( I wish he lived closer, or at least came home more often. After I get home from NYC, I leave for Camp Quality just two days later. Holy crap, do you know how excited I am for Camp? It's honestly the highlight of my summer, and I am really excited!!

Sidenote: If anyone is interested in volunteering for Camp Quality July 11-18 (in Akron, Ohio), please let me know! We are always in need of more companions, and are desperately in need of MALE companions. Please please please let me know :)

As nice as this summer has been, and as warm as Ohio is right now (surprisingly), I miss Spain. I think part of my heart is still there, and I would have no problem going back to live someday. I really just have this huge passion for traveling and exploring, and I am sad that it might be awhile before I can do that again. Speaking of which, I need a job. Bad. I've applied for about 20 jobs, no joke, and have not gotten any responses. I'm frustrated because I feel bad spending my parents' money, but I am in school, so my schedule is really limited. I just really don't know what to do about that. I owe my parents money, which I feel awful about because they don't really have the money to help me, and I have a huge credit card bill. Crap.

On that note, I'ma go scrapbook and think about how Camp is SO soon!!! I can't wait:)