Thursday, September 11, 2008

School shmool.

After being back for almost three weeks, I've decided that I cannot WAIT for school to be over. I was tired of it before it even started. This semester is especially hard for me, and I've certainly had more than one breakdown, because I am not in ANY nursing classes. This is the first semester of my college career (I'm on my 5th semester) that I have not been in a science or nursing course.  It's odd. I struggled through all my sciences the first two years, and I struggled through my nursing classes. Obviously, I didn't struggle enough. So here I am, taking three English courses, Humanities, and Spanish 1.  Since deciding on going to Spain in January, I decided to take up Spanish. It's been awhile since I've taken the class (Sophomore year of high school, to be exact), so I thought I should brush up on my skills before traveling to a country that speaks Spanish. Surprisingly enough, although it has been 4ish years since I've been in the class, I remember a lot! I even got a 97.5% on my first exam:) Needless to say, I am pretty proud of that. Such a grade is pretty much unheard of in Nursing, so I should probably hang the test up on my fridge.  Honestly, it's quite nice having a year off.  Already, I am working my ass off to get better grades. My goal is for straight A's this semester, and to try to raise that GPA of mine. We'll see how that goes.

In other news, I am so excited because I've been babysitting a lot.  I absolutely adore babysitting (Any of you who need a babysitter, let me know!), and I get a kick out of the 2 year old, Leah. The other day, we were watching Dora, and Dora and Boots had to go through a spiderweb.  Leah HATES spiderwebs and was soo grossed out by it.  Right after, I was changing her diaper for bedtime, and she goes "There's a spiderweb in my tushy!!!" Haha. I DIED. I seriously laughed soo hard, and couldn't wait to tell her mom! Things like this make me SO excited to be a mommy (don't worry, it'll be awhile!).  I've also been really tired and feeling drained very easily.  I've been getting more sleep, and trying to exercise regularly (which is really weird for me), but I still feel like a zombie. I feel as though I am just walking around and sitting in class and hardly paying any attention at all. I can hardly remember conversations I've JUST had, and I don't remember anything that happened yesterday. It's weird. My counselor says it's anxiety, which I can totally understand, but at the same time, I often feel crazy.

It's hard to believe it's been seven years since September 11 first happened. I distinctly remember sitting in Mr. Long's 8th grade History class. Mr. Pepper, the school jokester, ran in to tell us that a plane hit one of the Twin Towers. First of all, I had no idea what the Twin Towers were. Mr. Long told us we were all gullible if we believed it, and he laughed at Mr. Pepper. Wow, I bet Mr. Long feels like a douche now.  Anywho, we weren't allowed to watch any of the news coverage at school because of censoring (whatever), and I still had no idea what the World Trade Center was. My friend Kait's uncle was in the Pentagon when it was hit, so I accompanied her to the office to make sure her uncle was okay.  I just remember thinking it was sad but not really knowing how else to react. I didn't know anyone who was there, so it didn't affect me like it did others.  It's crazy to think that seven years have passed. I feel like it was just yesterday.  I think it's great that they still show documentaries, news coverage, etc. on the anniversary because it affected our country so much. I can't imagine forgetting such an event.